What's the first thing that caused depression for you?

[JaSaBong]

There's always a first time for everything. A lot of people suffer from depression for one reason or another and it can be just anything. A lady friend of mine had her first depression as a result of her pregnancy.

What made you depressed for the first time?

 

[Kaynil]

It is hard to chalk it down to just one an exact thing. I think for me was a cocktail of a lot of things going on inside and outside my head.

Outside: I had drama with my first relationship, with my best friend, disagreements with my parents. School career wasn't what I thought it'd be. My brother and I's dynamic was shifting.

On the inside: I was like an empty vessel putting everyone else's definitions and expectations of me, but things were going sideways because at some point I had set standards so high that I was incapable of maintaining them. I didn't know how to deal with that, I "always" had been able to keep up. I felt like I wasn't a fraction of what I SHOULD be. I couldn't understand why I couldn't just power through so I would lash at myself. I felt guilty for any thought that didn't align to the idealized version of myself I had erected for everyone to see.

 

[King Belieal]

The first thing that got me depressed was in my first year in high school. I had put in all the efforts and I believed that I would top my class. Even the rumors before the result announcement was pointing to the fact that I would top the class. But a guy just edged me out with just two marks to top the class. That led me to being depressed on how I missed out by just two marks. I cried that day.

 

[Mike30]

My first depression was when I left my country. And I had to start living outside of my culture. I felt like grabbing a fist and put it on earth to learn to walk from
one day to the next without return. One-way trip. ( I was born in Cuba, a communist government where freedom of speech and everything is prohibited, where you go to jail any day they want for any reason they choose)

 

[uptrendfinancialsignal]

Mine started after losing my first job during COVID. That period was so tough for me and my family. I used to wake up early with nowhere to go, just overthinking . It’s a tough feeling, and I don’t wish it for anyone. But talking with friends and family helped a lot. It's a pity that in my own country we don’t really talk about mental health much, but it’s real. Sometimes even just taking a walk or taking small helps can make a big difference.